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November 28 another day.......hey I have already crashed so I wont tell you about my day, I hate today.....
check out the train vid with "natural7"
and then there is the
and the and the one with two pussy cats
God Bless You all
feeling VERY small
Just Elle
xxx
 thanks to thems that gave me words of support November 27 I am just PISSED.....!Forget the fancy writing I aint interested, I av ad enuff, I feel so down, like I wish it were true that you could just give up and then die, cos I would do it, I so dont want to be here anymore its too hard, i am weak - never thought I was anything else, but I kinda tried to convince mesen that I were getting me head straight, I hate being here
I crave my children, so bad that it tears me up inside I feel like I am just a crumbling tower - and the tower never got finished in the first place - If you understand what I mean, I want to Love but I cant, I try but I find just giving ANY of me away then I am vulnerable so it's best to shut up innit!
hence the next issue - me - shutting up! haha I aint never known that to happen before, even if its to spill out pure shyte I still cant shut my gob.
I am tired of it all, and it feels pointless, whatever I do I end up doing wrong, I say I have good intentions but I am sure deepdown I only do nice things to get attention for myself, I bet thats how fake I really am, see I don't even know, I only know what I have been told and that is I am worthless, me own mam didnt want me, me adoptive parents didnt want me really - and Dad you know that too, if I am wrong then I can only say that it felt like that, sorry.
see there is me a bad c*** cos I cant "appreciate that these 'wonderful' people had taken me in from being an orphan, and this is how you repay them" or so my teacher said, just after she hit me with how she understood how I felt - HOW THE HELL CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND when I myself dont have a clue,!
I want out - Stop The World I Wanna Get Off, I am all out, I cant keep all this going, and do you know what has sparked all this off........? are you ready for this
I started down to this road to giving up because ALL DAY I have been trying to get my media player working and I cant find how to fix it, the puter programmer Brian knows, he came ar0ound yesterday and installed this ad-aware, and since then I cant get my media player working, some licence I dont know, and I cant find ANY of the tunes I bought from msn music?????
God Bless You all
just me again
 why wont it publishNovember 26 another day - I have been neglecting spacesWHAT A WONDERFUL DAY!!!
I have really been neglecting my space I got a couple of new pages, like Yahoo360, Bebo, WAYN, Facebook, oh my.....how many more,?
I am warming to Facebook now, although you cant pick your background or fonts or whatever, you get to throw sheep at folk, amongst other stuff, like drawing pics, its really GROWN-UP!, so I think Bebo, yahoo 360, and WAYN, are all for the chop and then I shall just keep my "Just Elle" and"facebook", I got a good network of friends from spaces,and I know my way around Microsofts Windows live, hence my backdown over the photos with Microsofts complaint about "nudity" - al tell you though - if I hadnt replied to their first threat to remove the pics or have "Just Elle" shut-down, , with an e-mail asking EXACTLY which pics to remove, I would be shut down cos I thought they were only referring to the 'Body Art' picture Album, but in fact they wanted me to remove two fairies and two cartoon (DRAWINGS) also, so I would have just unwittingly removed the 'body art' album and left the rest, not thinking that a fairy made from pc graphics, and two drawinds would be offensive - but they're you go, so by replying to the first e-mail warning me to remove "certain pics", I got the reply with the exact pic album, and file no's, THANKFULLY.
A guy said in my comments that he went through the same with microsoft and he deleted what he thought was the problem and it turned out to be a half alien half woman pic that they wanted removed!!! so ALWAYS reply and ask them to specify!!
WHERE DOES THIS P.C, PC END - where is that line!!!
so I guess thats my blog for today, only to say
does anyone remember me speaking about a person I met on spaces and she was in care, well she just got busted for using MSN, so thankfully I dont have to abandon her cos we already got phone numbers, I worry about her - as if she were my own, so all you Christians out there - Please pray for her, and those who are 'agnostic' you can pray too, and those who are just 'Athiest - "find the light"
 then pray - lol!!I am gonna change a couple of vids and that just now, I got the (on the tube-train) video form my mate Dermott, its fantastic, I was proper impressed I mean come onis that talent or wot, - and not an instrument in sight!!!
and the pepsi advert i love the new "Black-eyed Peas" tune, I think it's called 'Jump' but I cant find it, only the video! (if anyone has info on this subject - I WANNA KNOW)
Finally tommorrow:- I spacehop, so be prepared for the most sarcastic pics and cartoons in the world - on your guestbook, assuming you have a guestbook and if not - WHY NOT???
God Bless You and Yours
May you find your way in the light ALWAYS
Yours
Just Elle
xxx
 p.s. topic: AMAZON VOUCHERS in return for naughty pics - lol - my ass you gotta be kidding "amazon vouchers" -
 "why yes sir, I am sure we can provide you with your request....if you just purchase a tenner of amazon vouchers and we can take it from there"  C-R-A-Z-Y T-A-L-K
November 24 Just a quickie . . . oo-er!HELLO THERE MY FLOCK - HEHE
I just had a hectic day so I have only to say I got another Trojan Horse, AVG found it and its been quarantined (i wonder do I empty the virus vault or leave it in there?) answers on a postcard to......wot the . . . soz am away with the fairies,
I have been throwing out friend adds to a few (maybe four?) folk without giving them a message, so if you have an invite, I am sorry, my puter keeps crashing when I am trying to do a Guestbook entry! so please accept my invite and after the tech guy comes on Monday, I will be able to visit and leave my tag EVERYWHERE - I promise
so thats me, I gave into Microsoft, my cat survived surgery, I got a trojen Horse and I dont feel awful well!
I am still collecting friends but only thems that speak english and dont want to profess they're love for me???
God Bless You All
Love Always
Just Elle
xxx
 November 23 my new bebo cardthats my middle name and my married name once we finally do it I only just started it tho, so we shall see love you all and if you got an invite and didnt know who elizabeth Downie was, ITS ME xxx Just Elle welcome new friends and thankyou old friends,(not old/old, I mean....)hello folks once more
It has been a bit of a nightmare week once more hitting the exact time around a full moon!!! coincidence I don't think so!!!
I have been having trouble with gremlins in the puter, not letting me blog, like not typing the words I have 'typed'? it's like blind typing you write looking at the keys then wait ten minutes for the puter to catch up??? I don't get it so I have come up with writing what I want with a notepad and then copy/pasting it after to a blog entry page - INGENIUS am I - lol it works!!! I managed to get an entry in someones guestbook - Finally!  so then the rest of my stress comes with my litlle fluffy cat, Truffles, she is an old girl I said in a previous blog all that is wrong and her age, which is creeping nearer 17 as we speak! so anyways she got the go ahead for surgery a fortnight ago, they took bloods and she was stable finally, her kidneys and thyroid were stablized as much as they could be to get that surgery, her teeth were all covered iin plaque, her gums all swollen and her back tooth was rotten and abcsessed, she WAS suffering enough to risk the surgery I couldnt leave her like that, it was a case of risking surgery, if she didnt make it at least she would'nt be hurting anymore.but, by the grace of God I still got her, my little hero, this cat has prevented me commiting suicide at least four times, and I seriously would not be off Heroin today if it werent for her, maybe you all think i may be mad feeling this way about a cat, but, You would have to meet her to know, she holds hands, she knows when I hurt physical or mental, I couldnt imagine life without her, she looked like a condemned cat in the vets before, I got a photo al try put it with this blog but am still not getting how to do it!! I would like to say welcome to all my new friends, and come on NO MORE TURKS PLEASE, I am not for sale, nor am I willing to marry you, and I have a fella that would kick your ass!!!
God Bless You all Just Elle xxx  just tried to upload the photo and the "upload button" changes to "select all" when I go near it???????? November 22 thanks for the support folks! but get this!!!RAGING I AM!
firstly I want to thank you all for your support - really it means alot, I have loved doing my space, I have met some luvly folk, and some not-so-nice, but to those who supported me I wish you all the best, and ..........
Ha, betcha thought I was gonna be leaving youz - come on is it worth it, especially when I see the reply from microsoft explaining which ones I have to remove
LMAO
 I have copied an extract of the e-mail - telling me which pictures to remove,
it's bloody laughable, one of them is a cartoon!!!! honest the halloween cartoon of a witches hat with a hairy butt and it's trousers slightley down, its a drawing!!
when this is what they got probs with???? I mean there is a pic from my 'spaces home' that shows who updated what where he is in the nud (photo)!!! and this, fer fucks sake is O.K
I will sign out now cos when I try to copy/paste the e-mail my puter crashes, so I am gonna do it last
Thanks again for your support,
God Bless You all
Just Elle
xxx
 e-mail as follows:-
Hello Lee-ann,
We have found images involving nudity on your Space, elleness23.
Photo Album: heaps of dragons, fairies, and a hot looking male
Photo Name: sxy1306.gif Photo Name: 32740028741.jpg Photo Album: cool pics - they just appeared
Photo Name: halloween butt.jpg Photo Album: body art - you'll love em! (whole album)
Photo Album: erm.......i got "cartoons - with two little piggy pics snuck in!
Photo Name: cartoons to hit LMAO part of the brain!.bmp Kindly remove this image and any other images, messages or links on your Space that violate the Windows Live Spaces Code of conduct within 48 hours.
Violations include, but are not limited to, nudity, partial nudity, pornography, harassment, and illegal or offensive behavior. For a complete description of content that is not allowed on Windows Live Spaces, please visit our Code of Conduct at: http://spaces.live.com/coc.aspx
If you remove all violating content, your space will again be in accordance with the Windows Live Spaces Code of Conduct, and will remain accessible for your use. Otherwise, we will be forced to close down your space. P>S NO i WILL NOT MARRY ANY TURKS, AND THE NEXT ONE TO ASK......dont tempt me  November 21 more opinions, come on folkscome on folks, I really need your opinions,
I wouldnt want to offend, or lose my site, if you think that it isnt worth losing my site over - you NEED to tell me! please
Just Elle
xxx
 I need comments, come on folks!!microsoft want to close me down for having the body art picture album, I need you to put a comment on the blog, either in support of my arguement (that is, that it's ART), or leave your comment on what you find offensive and your name
  IT'S A PETITION THANKS FOLKS
God Bless again
Just Elle
xxx
  I SAY 'ART'!
the f-ing cheek of microsoft - oh and the squealer!Raging - pure Raging,
so who is the little squealer that went running to Microsoft cos underneath that fantastic body art those people are NAKED - oooooooooooh
Fer fucks sake - I have had close-ups of fannies proper stuffed with a big red dildo, but do microsoft shut her down - NOOOoooooooo,
I have seen folks contact pictures being their hard-ons,
and I have been approached by so many perverts! I cant believe that I got 'this' e-mail this morning,
at first I didnt know what they were talking about....really,
here is the e-mail anyways.........
Hello Lee-annshaw,
We have found images involving nudity on your Space, elleness23.
Kindly remove this image and any other images, messages or links on your Space that violate the Windows Live Spaces Code of conduct within 48 hours.
Violations include, but are not limited to, nudity, partial nudity, pornography, harassment, and illegal or offensive behavior. For a complete description of content that is not allowed on Windows Live Spaces, please visit our Code of Conduct at: http://spaces.live.com/coc.aspx
If you remove all violating content, your space will again be in accordance with the Windows Live Spaces Code of Conduct, and will remain accessible for your use. Otherwise, we will be forced to close down your space. You may delete photos from your Space by following these instructions:
1. Log into your Space 2. Click on the "Edit Your Space" link (upper right portion of the page) 3. Click "Options" 4. Click on the "Storage" link in the Options pane 5. Select the images to be removed 6. Click on "Delete selected items" Thank you for helping Windows Live Spaces provide a friendly and safe experience for all of our customers.
Sincerely, Windows Live Spaces Customer Support
No message is selected Click any message to view it in the reading pane. Attachments, pictures, and links from unknown senders are blocked to help protect your privacy and safety. To show messages automatically when you select a folder, change your reading pane settings
1 message is selected Mark as safe | Mark as unsafe so my dear friends, I want to know- what do you think, I have 48hrs before I have to remove them, so I want your thoughts ART - or - OFFENSIVE please leave your comments, if I am in the wrong and tell me, but if I am offending no-one then, if they want war they got it, I stand by my principles , So dont be shocked if I get closed down - I would rather not, but..... God Bless You all, I still have the morn right enough! Just Elle xxx
November 20 I just got back from the hair dressers, and I am a stunner!I would reveal my new hair to you today but I am sulking.........
cos I thought I had a fan, but as usual I got carried away, and I havent been accepted as a friend by this person......THE PAIN , it hurts
I am gutted, but its ok, I got enough greif going on, ,
do you remember I had a granite block/vase made for my dad's grave its only 8"x8" squared, but cos its england I hqave to get permission from the town Council!! and that costs £40, so I agree, but the fella, Mr Argylle says he had to check out where the grave was situated to make sure there is room for it, without obstructing the machinery like a lawn-mower and such like, anyway Mr Argylle then phones me back and tells me that my dad's Headstone is come loose from the concrete foundations and needs to be 'diamond drilled' and have 'steel ground anchor's' put in - BUT - the council can get that done for a further £75 + VAT, so now I gotta go and speak to my granddad and give him the bad news, I mean my father has been gone for 32years, but there was a mistake on the gravestone and so Granddad paid out for a new one not 9years ago! so for it to have problems in only nine years, it's gotta be a complaints with the stone Masons, like granddad said that is his son buried there and when he pays for a headstone he expects it to out live him, I mean all this must be really hard for Him (my granddad) bringing up the horrific past, over and over again.
anyway, I am back from the hairdressers this afternoon and I am just the most bootilicious, I got my blonde put back through the top of my hair and a autumn brown colour at the back underneath, so I am looking - tsssssssss - HOT! lol
Hot, like a painful fag-burn on yer butt, or hot as a blubber suit in a bikini covered in baby oil (oh and it's 100degrees in the shade)
 oh fcuk it! fifty quid I have paid for me "New Do" and I am gonna enjoy it - infact whilst my fella has nipped out al take a picture - oviously it's not my fault if my cleavage sneak into the frame - is it??? I have managed to get activeX photo upload tool, but when I pic the pic....I go up ready to click on the 'upload button' the button changes its mind and turns into 'select all' when you go near it with your arrow (or as I have - a dragon cursor - lol) it's got me stumped again
Och well another day done, alls I got to say now is.......
 hehehehehe - fucking comedian eh?but apart form that I have to put the new hair pic in the just me album,
God Bless You all (and Elfinpunk Firedweller - BE MY FRIEND)
There's Always Summat? quiet life - who needs it - ME,ME, ME!
Just Elle
xxx
November 18 OK second time round - f-ing gremlins in the puter!so here is how it goes,
you know when you click on messenger to go to spaces, - first you get 'spaces home' where you can see all your friends recent updates, and I am having one tincy wincy problem with it.
I am - how you say - M.A.D - no really I am,
I am classified as multiple-personality disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder and finally Bipolar-disorder. great hey
and that is just my head,
As I were saying........I see the latest updates from me mates,, now that would be all good, but when you see what others have done it kinda puts you at a loss when you have a higgeldy-piggeldy site like mine!!
you know, one week I might have a site full of funnies and mad videos, and cartoon pictures, and the next week I might change my tune on the media player from Kanye West to The Fugees, and then 'comfortably numb' from Pink Floyd IT DEPENDS ON MY MOOD innit? I mean is that what you are "supposed" to do, like have a theme, cos I don't think I can restrict myself to one way of feeling and my space is definitely a reflection of the way my life is at that time,
like just now, you got funny videos, well I think so, a video on how to make a stink-bomb (my inner child) a picture of a 3D Marijuana leaf, and a whole heap of my grumfing in the guise of a blog - LMAO
That's me for another day.......except to say welcome to my twoo new friends, I hope to visit your sites proper tomoz, since me backs done in still and I am starting to go cross-eyed - Mmmmm luvly, I am just yer Number one Sexual goddess eh? (can you imagine it........oooh careful...watch my back, oh not that way it hurts me leg, turn the light off cos am cross-eyed a aswell!- you can feel the orgasm just screaming to go eh....NOT)
quick Q: Does anyone else have their letters rubbing off their keyboards???
God Bless Youa dn Yours
always insane
Just Elle
xxx
I am still collecting friends - you know the score no freaks, pervs, tranny's or, wierdo's in any shape or form
(none wierder than me - dont make me hunt you down now) November 17 hello world - as Eminem would sayso here is how it goes,
me being me has gone and done in my back, I went to the doc (which is proper mad for me) and she said I had slipped a disc in my back - I couldnt understand, firstly: I hadnt done anything to hurt myself then secondly, I was having no pain in my back - it was my leg that was killing me. Honest folks I was actually considering that a fox could chew off his own leg then surely I could find the strength to get out the jigsaw and do the job quick!!! For Real, I am pure feeling that way
right back to the story in hand, I have now been to the Docs, she says slipped disc in my back!!, and sendsme to casualty
and her is what I saw, in my MRSA free hospital!!! (pictures below,
the first pic is the sink with an empty so apdispenser, and another soap dispenser hanging there - (i.e it was broken, I mean there was just the squirty tube bit), then there is the pic of the open cabinet (should be locked) and the polystyrene tiles on the roof are another gripe I have so I took a close up, that being pic number three. and last but by far the least is - tan..ta..ta..tan..tan..tan..taaaa (that's my drumroll)
 WHAT'S THAT - UNDER THE BED........?
the fourth and final picture (those of a weak disposition...look no further)
you know the beds in casualty, they have little glass jars with tubes attached, and another larger glass round container, some kind of drainage container, also with tubes, well picture number 4 is the larger glass container in my room when I attended,
now that room was down on the pc at hospital as free, and ready for the next patient, and this is what is under the bed!!!!
I feel sick when I look at it, but the camera doesnt show it in all its vivid colours! I got nervous incase they walked in whilsst I took the shot, cos the tubes and that containers ar right under the head of the bed
So there you go, I have a trapped nerve, and am not allowed on the puter for long, I got to rest - blurg!,
thanks to thems that sent me the kind messages,
and thanks to thems that didnt get round to it - I am sure you were 'just about to'
 eh???,God Bless You and Yours,
I pray you are all well,
Just Elle
xxx
ok so I got activeX and can get me pics up but it wont upload!!! I wanna kill this puter!
so av made an album, check it out!!! (cos its an album - I fitted in the rest of the snaps to the room)
byeeeeeeee November 15 O.K so life isnt all badright here is how it goes,
on subject number one.... code:PRIORITY (person I was really worried about)
thankfully we are still friends and I hope long may it continue, I will always try to be a voice in Aberdeen that ist abandoning anyone
I really think this person is a top character and has had a raw deal, bless em
so hey ho am really happy she and I are ok!
subject number two...code:not so priority (i.e I have a slipped disk in my back and have to go into hospital)
So there you have it, I thought that sitting at this puter all the time had awoken a dormant DVT (Bloodclot) in my leg,
back from my smack days, so when i started to get pain in my foot, ankle, and knee I thought that it was kicking off real bad,
I was in sooooo much pain last night I nearly went to the hospital off my own back and I NEVER do that! for real!
So I got an emergency appointment to see my GP, got there at 10:50am was seen at 12pm, I explained to me Doc that I had my DVT theory,
so in her usual straight to the point she said "right off with your jeans for a start!!"
then came the bad news I really wasnt expecting, I have a slipped disk - she tried to get me a bed in Neurosurgery,
but they wouldnt admit me until I had had ammi or mri scan I cant remeber, I just couldnt get the word Neurosurgery out of my head,
Is it not bad enough that at 34yrs of age I am riddled with premature Oesteo-arthiritis through being Joint Hypermobile?!? (if I were a horse - I would be shot and Dogfood by now!-innit!) mind you the Doc did say 0% of slipped disk casualties get better on their own, but she ended the sentence with "but knowing you Lee-ann you will be in the minority and end up in surgery"!!!
YIKES, WTF,OMG, .......you get the idea yeah? I am scared, so I came home to get some stuff to take with me and I have talked Brian into letting me stay home tonight...I am scared - I hate hospitals!, I sound like a child dont I? - "I dont wanna go" huff!
 So, thats me first thing the morn - whisked up to hospital to spend too long stuck in a bed - lonely and sad,
al miss my Brian, and Our Truffles,
I gotta get off the puter, its one of the rules to not having to go up tonight, so I have to abide by them cos He will make me go!
I bid you all "later" till I get home I spose, I can do wee blogs from my mobile
I might do that, but I cant see my guestbook, so messages are always welcome!
God Bless You and Yours
Just Elle
xxx
 November 12 am I an idiot?I feel like such an idiot, and once I tell you all what I have done, you're all gonna agree with me!
I have been speaking to this person, if you have read my blogs, you would have heard all about it, so quick recap for those who don't know
a girl 'in care', I felt real compassion for her, I have stressed so much about her, I have even tried to talk my fella to taking her in, but Social Work wouldnt look at me - especially for a problem child (if she is infact who she says she is!)
SO, me being me went and bought her a tenner top-up for her phone and gave her the voucher number over the msn, I mean fair does she phoned me, which she is lucky I am who I say I am!, but back to the situation,I was just speaking to her on msn, and she actually demanded a tenner from me, at first \I thought she was just being cheeky!, but no, she really wanted a tenner to buy BUD, like I am gonna supply her with cash knowing full well it's going on drugs 'for a minor', I was only topping her phone up as a one off stupid as that was!
so am I a fruitcake, I was just trying to help, I was her age once, and as angry and abondoned from this world as she is feeling, but it seems she is also as demanding and brash as I was too!"!
I now feel proper gutted, I dont know if she will speak to me again, and I still feel the same compassion for her - regardless.
I gotta go, am totally drained.
I wish you all a forth-coming week of happiness,
God Bless You and Yours
Just Elle
xxx
me and my bright ideas!! November 11 forgot to put the link in - oopsultimate fruitcake,
sorry folks, Bigbri's space, here is the link,
and I did try change my tune, but it'll have to wait till the morn!
there you go, I am gonna learn how to get that ActiveX tomorrow,
I got a e-mailthat when printed was 7pages of instructions,
so thats a (tackle the morn kinda thing)
God Bless yiz AGAIN!!
Just Elle
xxx
 it gives me great pleasure to introduce....tan-ta-ta-ta-tan-tan-taaaaO.K so finally here he is, my one and only true love, Big Bri
you can either go down to me 'friends' and click on 'BigBri', or hit the link (to follow) for his space, well thats me for another day, only to say that I still have a darn headache, and I am near to falling asleep, think I need me happy pills, maybe should have taken them earlier cos I feel all tripped out - strange feeling - not nice! So as Always God Bless You and Yours Just Elle
xxx p.s he thinks that I will get jealous if he gets invites from women to be friends - lol!  (but I'm cool!!)November 10 EXPERIMENT NUMBER 1- to get ActiveX controls test number 1
here goes blog number on on trying to get this 'ActiveX' I have tried to get it on my settings and the Administrators settings, but I couldnt do it, then one day messing about in administration I found a thingy with security settings and under ActiveX it said 'disable' so I enabled it and now am gonna try get it on my setting first if that doesnt work then I will try in : BLOG NUMBER 2 the final frontier!!
so here goes, see at the bottom of the 'add blog' page, you got 'add photos' then 'embed videos' well the 'embed videos' I got no problems with that, but if I click on 'add photos' I get a page saying to click on the yellow bar to install ActiveX but I dont go no yellow bar, or any kind of 'download' or 'install' or 'open/run' options I got nothing??? so I am now going to try again since altering the security settings, close yer eyes count to three and shout "ALAKAZAM' or summat else you think might help..............drumroll.............
 sorry am doing it, if there is NO PIC at the bottom of this blog I have failed, please tune in to Just Elle to see experiment number 2, are yo excited or what!! lolright here goes.....
I saved the blog as a draft, then tried to get the ActiveX, BUT...it didnt work, it said I had to be on administrator settings,........Soooooooo I kinda rebooted the puter as admin and tried again.......and it still didnt work!!!!, so I asked Windows Live, so al wait and see what they say, and then I clicked on the upload photos from my space and got it from there - sorry folks.....REALLY, and I can with this I am not frustrated AT ALL
looking in the mirror of the pastWhat do you do when you see yourself in someone else, but there is nothing you can do to help?
I have a friend, I actually like this person, despite them once in a while talking/typing attitude pure out the blue. I tollerate it because in this person, is like looking in a mirror from the past, only this person is still looking at 15years before they find the understanding neede to cope with their past, and forthcoming present, if you know what I mean?
Oh God, I havent even got my own children cos I couldnt cope and I asked my fella if we could take this person in?!? I am so scrambled over this. I want to be able to show them a peek at how it is when you have learned how it works and how you deal with it, IT being life's wonderful stabs in the back, because they dont hurt so much forever, each time you get sronger, it's just getting through it, but if you loose that belief that you CAN do it, then you lose the will to live through it, EVERYTHING seems pointless, and I cant bear the thought that I have been there and cant do a damn thing to show them, cos you have to learn it yourself, which is HARD when you aint kean on yourself and you think you are alone.
So the only thing I can do is be a continuous person throughout, and hope that this person has the stength I believe they have.
Did I lose you, sorry, this has really taken over my mind, I will have to keep praying that the way toward the light is not as rocky as they have stumbled along so far. (SIGH
 )On another distressing subject, I got a friend - another one, who sent me this e-mail this morning, it opened my eyes to the reality of it, I mean I knew it went on, I read once a magazine, this poor lassie had written into an agony aunt, it had been her birthday and she was pinned down by relatives whilst grandmother severed the hood to her clitoris and sewed the opening to her vagina, she felt violated but felt she could tell no-one for help as it was their custom!! and the family classed this as normal! Civilised eh? and that was in britain.
back to the original topic, my other friend sent me an e-mail, about a poor wee 8yr old boy (tiny he was) had been caught stealing bread in Iran - a supposed civilised place - Ahem - sarcastic dry cough - you get the picture ! so this wee boy was sentenced to have his arm that he was caught stealing with to be run over by a car, I think the father had managed to plea the child out of it being severed (the normal punishment for theft), so this e-mail then goes on tho show you stills of the car going ove his arm whilst his Father tried to comfort him, I have a lump in my throat just telling yo about it now!!! What the Hell is going on on this God forsaken world, Humans really do push it to the limit when it comes to their Judgement or Lack of! I am so sick of life just now I feel like walking round the streets like a crazed pyschopath shouting at any random folk about how they are crushing the future for our children, I dont care if you say you recycle everything and have solar panels on your roof! Where is your faith, your pride and your CONCIENCE, I need to sign off, I still got a headache and this isnt helping.
God Bless You and Yours
even you that cant justify your previous actions, I know I cant, I need forgiveness as much as the next person!
Always summat to say
Just Elle
xxx
Me losing it !! BIG TIME !!
November 09 OMG I just read that blog and it came out wrongI just read that last blog and I was supposed to say to those insisting on sending nasty chain e-mails to go
and to those who keep me laughing with the funnies (you know who you are) keep em coming i.e 'send em on' so Nicky I love yer e-mails, and others too, just those who have nowt nice to say, please, just don't say nothing at all!
I also meant to say in that blog that I had received an e-mail about a muslim woman and then used it as a blog as it was one of they situ's that go unmentioned and I amongst others have felt the same to the point of blogging it themselves so now the original e-mail owner has no credit for bringing this to our attention, so if you have read the blog abvout the supermarket and the muslim lady, ALL CREDIT TO AULDNICK, me mate - Nicky, but I am glad that inspite of the English/Welsh/Irish and Scot divide, when it comes down to it, the British spirit does live on! if you go to Aaron's site on my 'friends' module it's the blog on his front page,I also owe the soldiers album to Nicky too, Our boys are still out there, just cos it doesnt hit front page on the news anymore does not mean peoples family arent out there, so just to take a minute out of your day to say a wee prayer or a wee silent thought for them wouldnt go amiss
so thats me cleared that up, I am updating vids agai n tommorrow, so I am off to....
 and to eat heaps of painkillers,God Bless You and Yours
Just Elle
xxx
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