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July 31 RE: MY CAT,TRUFFLEShey folks,
A bad day yesterday afternoon, I went on the PC for 2hrs, then babysat for my bri's neices, until nearly two o'clock, cos Truffles had an appointment at the vet.
Truffles is nearly 16 and is Hyper-thyroid, wi enlarged heart, and a possible brain lesion(she had a fit and a personality change) anyway apart from that she isnt really suffering, but now we have been informed of her Kidney failure, which I might add is too far progressed for treatment and I now have to weigh up when she is content and when she is suffering and make the awful decision of euthenasia, my Truffles is my Baby, I am proper gutted, I don't know what I would do without her.
I will just have to keep praying that I make the right decision and she doesnt suffer, Lord please give me strength.
That's me for today, folks I am just not feeling up to chatting
Take Care all and God Bless
Yours always
Elleness23 July 30 RE: my 1st chatroom experience That was well wicked, I actually spoke to someone in Colorado, I mean you cant say that everyday. So now I am cool that they don't all want flirt and talk nonsense.
I was looking at the music recommendations on my space, did you know that if you click on the album cover you can actually get to listen to a sample of each song on each album, seriosly you should listen to the WOW Worship, just the you are Holy and how Great is our God they are not like what you would expect, if not your cuppa, then click on good ol'Eminem he always cheers me up.
still waiting for a comment or something is anybody out there, answer me!!!
July 29 RE:mobile prices to contact spacesI dont have a PC as you would know from my blogs. Anyroad i sometimes come to add a blog from my mobile so i write a little bit and before i know it its cost me £2or3 its not fair. I am on Prepay and cant get a contract phone cos am blacklisted.Spk soon x July 28 RE:TIRED AND FED UPJust as i said, I feel so 'blugh' I really cant be bothered to be bothered - does anyone feel this way ever! I can be so happy and within seconds I am on my knees praying for the will to keep up this charade (i.e.this coping pretence,I do)God Bless Youz x RE: Anger+stress=EMINEM i HAVE APPROX 8 MINUTES LEFT ON netloan AT THE LIBRARY, SO i JUST WANT TO TAKE THIS SHORT TIME TO EXPLAIN WHY i WOULD HAVE AN eMINEM cd ALONG WITH THE wOw WORSHIP Cd,
iT GOES LIKE THIS, I love Our Lord God with all my heart but cometimes the soothing words of praise just don't quite hit the spot, IMostly folk think Eminem is just another foul mouth punk, rapping wi fis Brethren, but if you could just sit and listen to his words and ignore the swearing he really seems to know about every emotion I have ever had to deal with. I think He is fantastic, if I had that talent maybe I wouldnt swear so much but I would wish for his insight into the human emotion
July 27 lf else fails -get on yer knees and pray...hit me back, just to chat, I am really, really depressed today, I am having my regular 2hrs on the PC and I can't get piece coz I have been scuppered into cutting Brian's bro's hair, fair enuff I agreed but doe he and his wierd Mrs have to stand ove us for the whole 2hrs I can't be arsed wi this, |I said to come round after 3 when I should be back from the library, but NO they are sitting waithing for the whole 2hrs - why. and when I try talking to my Man about it he just shouts at me.
I really am pathetic and can't stand up for myself I wish it was easy to commit Harry-carry, but its not and if/when you do pluck up the courage then the "will I go to HELL" question, since I am a Christian and suicide is a sin. So what do I do I writhe this short blog and I will go home cut his hair and then try and talk myself out of Harry-carry, even tho I dont have much holding me back, I feel about as loved as an abandoned baby hedgehog in September.
My psychiatrist tries his best but I really am feeling the loss og=f the will to carry on in thisa excuse of a life.
Lord, help me, please make it so Brian stops shouting at me and making me feel stupid
Please free me form these wicked thoughts, I am thinking 'the MASTER PLAN' is the only way
God Bless you all, I really hope and pray that your lives,
are filled with the love and joy you all deserve,
faithfully yours
Elleness23 a.k.a Lee-Ann
xxx July 26 The truth did out...not htat it did owt tho Maybe cos I'm a woman I am never happy with anything - its a trait I belive all femme Fatales are brandished with. Anyway Part 4: the case of the knife wielding idiot. can I also take this opportunity to say if you're ever going to have to fight your way out of something PLEASE for the sake of other people don't be taking a knife, why this generatin thinks it needs a weapon is beyond me, I grew up in a village where if trouble came knocking you tried sorting it 1st then if that didnt work the last resort was fighting. Nowadays folk pull out all shapes and sizes of weapons from Samuri swords to proper Smith and Wessons, its all gone too far. As I was saying tho if it comes to it that there is NO other way to sort it out bar fighting then leave your weapons at home - ESPECIALLY if you have no intention of using it, coz believe me when I say that if you take out a knife (for example) and you havent planned on using it, the person your fighting does not know that and there is a bl**dy good chance that they might take it off you OR worse have a knife of their own and they dont know you wont use it so you get stabbed by the person you attacked because they are defending thmselves - like I said they don't know if you don't really want to use it
MORAL OF THE STORY - Stop with the weapons already! the law WAS kicking ass on folk wi weapons lately like 140days in jail - remanded (was mandatory) but the fool that tried to attack my Bri was kept in the cells all night and then the Sheriff (scottish Judge) let him go - I mean where is the justice in that. I know of a guy doing the fully commited 140days for carrying a Skene-Dhu (traditional knife worn in the sock of a full tartan Scottish National Dress) so I am finding it unfair that this bam can run up the middle of our main street in Tillydrone, Aberdeen waving a knife about and trying to threaten my Brian wi it before running in to the co-op still wi the blade and trying to hide it in wi the sweets, he got seen doing it so he picked it back up again but couldnt get out of the co-op coz they had pushed the panic alarm when he tried to jump over the counter in the shop.
I really am getting to old for all this and I keep praying for God to release us from the captivity of living directly above the cousin of th accused, I will keep praying, but My Faith is weakening, I am tired and have the Neighbours from hell, I am depressed and my cat is dying and my Fiancee Brian isnt v good at being understanding, he just wants to anialate anyone and everyone who crosses our path.
Please if you are reading this all I ask is you just ask Our Lord for a forgiving heart for my Man, and for us to have the strength to stay on the right side of the path, whilst we are walking through this valley of.....demons, I see no Good in any of them lot downstairs
God bless you all and all who are with you
feel free to comment - if you disagree with me or have a different perspective for me to try looking at
Keeping it real
Lee-Ann July 25 The morning afterim taking this opportunity to say if U only want messages from ur family+friends please adjust your communication preferences.i just been insulted by a stranger+accused of stalking! Its knocked me a bit.why are people so cruel. And what do i do about it? July 24 Part 3:Justice prevails...Ok so if you have been to my space and read todays blogs you'll know the story so far so all i want to say is:the truth did out. My Bri got out. And the perpetrator is locked in a 6ft square cell until he attends Court 2morro...140days in Jail...MANDATORY the police still got him...... So, what is going on with the judicial system, I have been to see the cops and given a statement, which in hte world I used to be involved in is a crime itself - it's classed as grassing, so you can't protect yourself when you are threatened verbally,until the person threatening you ACTUALLY does do something
Then if you get attacked in the middle of the street, by a boy wielding a knife, if he says to the attending police that he took the knife off the person he had tried to stab, then both get arrested. And I am supposed to say nothing to the police coz it is grassing! I HATE the life I have just escaped from, but I can't seem to get rid of it.
I think it is perfectly normal to want to tell the police everything when some maniac has just tried to stab you in the middle of your suburb in Aberdeen, and sure as black is black, I told they coppers everything and Now I just have to wait for the police to look at the cctv and get the statements from everyone who saw it, and hope that the truth will come out - so come on public, please pray for the truth to out - We me and Bri have really tried to get rid of everything that is bad in our lives, and now we are going to have to move as the perpetraitor is a cousin of my Bri's cousin, and they live directly below us, JUNKIES oh if I could change just one thing it would be never touching any kind of drugs especially HEROIN. do we not deserve a 2nd chance? Talking about Justice - I want justice
Quote Justice - I want justice July 23 one small step for man, one giant......... one small step for man, one giant leap into the unknown and what do I do, I tell everyone what a mess I have made of my life before actually making the right impression confirming that I have my head screwed on, I am funny (when I want to be) and I don't look like an over-sized drag queen!
so, now I can't delete what I wrote, but I can try to give the right impression now. I am thinking of purchasing a PC but I am just learning how to do stuff, I have come streets ahead since the 1st time I sat in front of one o these things since I was younger and waiting 30 minutes for our commodore 64 to load the ping-pong game!!! OH those were the days.
Anyway, here I am in Tillydrone Library, Aberdeen, you get 2hrs for free per day, I only registered so I could install my "disc to phone" CD-ROM to put tunes on my SE w810i walkman phone, So, look at me now, I am learning all by myself, and NEARLY having fun doing it , I am disappointed that I havent met that many people, I have my own space - cool, but it won't load up my Taurus Horoscope anymore? why..I havent worked that out yet.
Somebody talk to me, I don't bite and even if I did you are safe at the other end of a computer, so it would be a metaphorical bite, with cyber-teeth!
So, I will keep in my prayers the want for broadening my contact in the world, and I will pray that soon someone will 'get who I am' and then I can relax in the knowledge that I am not a social outcast, in person, or on the W.W.Web.
failing my plan to inherit some wild and happy people, and talking about just 'whatever', I am sure that once I come to terms with the fact that I am just not someone that you want to chat too, I will accustom myself to simply having my own space just for me.
(Advice on what I am doing or saying wrong: would be appreciated) Oh come on Lee-Ann pull it together I really am not that desperate.
God Bless you all, may peace be upon you
sincerely yours
Lee-ann (elleness23)
July 21 here's to being alonemy ode to being alone,
I am not alone...most of the time, I have a partner, but still...oh, to be alone!
He's away fishing in Aboyne, for the WHOLE of today,
I stressed all night, what will I do, alone wi no-one to play,
What is it all about,
When he's home we scream and shout
Now I'm alone, I'm feeling lost, what else is there to say?
I knew of this trip for days, a day for me...alone,
The plans I had, the dreams of peace, a day for me ...alone
It's only been since 9AM,
I'm lonely an' its only half past 10
I understand
 that there is "lonely"...and "alone!" So, come on what is my plan? I have to think o'sumfing
I can't have him home an' find that I've been sitting doing nuffing!
I went t' library for a while,
I watched a film on a crocodile!
"Best time ever!" He's sure to know that the truth is I'm bluffing
So, here's to all youz on yer own,
There's nothing wrong to be alone....just don't be bl**dy lonely!
thank crunchy its friday! Or not!Let me tell you, when I first got this space I thought what a bonus, I can be myself no fronts just me and my thoughts, and maybe "I thought" I can find somebody in this whole wide world that would be able to understand me, without predjudice, now forgive me if I am wrong but firstly I get a couple of lets be friends messages, until my past comes up,and then - whoosh...pure wall of silence, louder than a hurricane! so, now what do I say?
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